Well, I did it.
I took a risk. I HIT “Record”, and let it fly.
My intention was simple… to do an experiment and to have fun.
What would it be like if I had my own P@dc*st or Talk Show?
(I’m not ready to say that P-word yet, even though I did say it in the video.)
What would it be like to give myself permission to show up and express in a way that has been on my heart for some time but that I haven’t really leaned into?
The truth is, I’ve got a lot to say.
And as I’ve shared recently… in my stubborn pursuit of one specific vision of my artistry and my career as a musician, I’ve muted some of my other gifts and not given them the attention and airtime they deserve.
The result is that I have felt stifled, not fully satisfied and worst of all, not fully SEEN and HEARD.
Which makes sense… How could I feel completely fulfilled and honoured for who I am when I’m not honouring ALL OF ME? When I’m not really seeing and hearing myself?!
So… in the spirit of taking risks, I’ll take it one step further and share that the vision on my heart is bigger than me. It definitely goes beyond me just talking solo, being silly and enjoying the sound of my own voice, although that actually does feel like a good place to start.
For a long time, I’ve received countless nudges and soul whispers that have gotten louder and LOUDER and LOUDERRRR to curate a series of conversations where I can have meaningful, soulful, deep dive, heart-to-heart chats with some of the beautifully inspiring humans, artists, thought leaders, change makers and shiny souls I have the privilege of knowing.
Conversations about artistry and the creative hero’s journey. Explorations of the different ways we can tap into the alchemy that allows us to turn our greatest challenges and the pain of the human experience into beauty, power and purpose. A space where vulnerability, authenticity, truth and less commonly talked about themes such as grief, faith, and prayer are welcome and approached with curiosity and reverence.
That’s ultimately where I could see this going but first things first, this is about me reclaiming my creative sovereignty and taking my power back.
It’s about me doing the revolutionary act of giving myself FULL PERMISSION to create FOR ME, for the pure JOY of it. It’s about making something honest and detaching from the constant consideration of outcomes, audience, algorithms or anything that would threaten the authenticity, realness and purity of what I’m sharing.
Because when it comes down to it, I’ve come to realize that that’s the only way I can go forward in integrity and in a way that is going to be sustainable for me, energetically, spiritually, and holistically.
And today, this is what felt alive for me.
So here we are… Experiment # 1. And I’ll be honest, it feels good and I had a lot of fun making this.
How could I not?
I ate a freshly baked chocolate chip cookie and slurped my peppermint tea on camera to kick things off. That feels badass and liberating just writing about it! I also shared some of that cookie goodness with my unofficial co-host and legendary furry best bud, Reggie, who blessed me with the perfect cameo before peace’ing out.
And then just like that, I gave myself some space to speak honestly about a range of things that are present for me in this moment. I shared about the first seed that was planted for this P-thing I’m exploring by my incredibly inspiring friend Blu of Earth during a Gene Keys session we did five years ago.
Blu has her own wildly successful podcast called Deja Blu, that grew exponentially from the most humble beginnings. In our session, we discovered that she and I have both been on a journey of losing our hearing, and that we also both have a very unique and rare Gene Key in common, Gene Key 43, which explores the initiation of deafness.
From there, I took a moment to go on a long overdue rant about AI, sparked in part by my first in depth encounter with ChatGPT today. I shared about the beautiful and catalytic process I was guided through by my homie, Darius Bashar, that really landed the realization for me that I’m genuinely creating for ME first, which was further encouragement to take this leap and just do the damn thing for the sheer fun of it with zero attachment to how it turns out and without needing to be perfect, polished or even postable!
This was a transcript of my spoken answer to Darius’ question, “Who are you creating for, really?” The best part is that ChatGPT, in reflecting on the answer said: “That is probably the most honest answer you could give.” 😮
Touché, GPT. Maybe you’re not all bad after all.
That was the last little nudge I needed.
And so, just like that, I found myself at the mic, camera on and rolling with no idea what was gonna come out. Taking a tiny step in the direction of actualizing a big vision I’ve had for a long time because I couldn’t stand NOT doing it any longer.
I made something for ME and had fun doing it. And now, I’m sharing it with you in the spirit of setting it free and letting my expression flow forth from this new place.
I hope we get to share a chocolate chip cookie together in person sometime soon.
Much love,
Chris
Ps. Here’s a sneak peek of my latest batch!
